LoNeliNess

sunyi...

ak rase sunyi...

no frens, no bf, no family...

sume tadak..

dok umah pon sorg2 je slalu..

nak balik muar ke,balakong ke,pnt, mls..

dengan ak suke laki, mesti laki 2 jadi xsuke ak..

org yg lame ak suke, tunggu, xkan suke ak..

mkin lame perasaan ni makin teruk..

mkin terukk...makin terukk..

sampai ak rase takut utk berbual dengan ramai org..

sampai ak rase nak lari kan diri drp berbual..

self-esteem yg turun mendadak..

pulak 2 ade org komen sal rupe ak..rmbut ak...

my rival pulak cantik..

ak...xcantik...

makin lame ak makin xbest..

bile xbest org malas layan...

makin down....

makin down..........

sampai nak larikan diri dr idop ni..tp nak lari ke mane je kan...

tpakse hadapi...

tambah lak stress dgn kerja...kerja yg bosan dan ak xminat..

bile da tlalu stress, sunyi, gi la jalan2 sorg2...mkn kfc,mcd sorg2 (bzir duit)..

gi jalan2 kat tasik sorg2..release sikit rasenye...

pas2 ble tkurung je malas nk kuo jadi stress balik..

pk mcm2..nangis sorg2.....

kalo lame2 cmni bole jadi gileee...

HAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...(ni bkn mjerit, ni mengeluh.nak jerit pon da xde smangat)

many years i try to love myself,when many people said i should love my self first..

but until now, i could'nt find any strong reason to love this hidayah..(tbe2 selit bhse omputih jap)

mgkin ak perlu belajar menghargai...tp ak selalu rase menghargai ape yg ak ade bile ak bersama kwn2 or family..tapi ni ak asik sorg2 je..mmgla rase 2 xmuncul2...

rindu time kat ump.time ak dgn roomate2 ak..kat ump ak rapat ngn roomate..

ni kalo balik ump balik pon, roomate da xde..rindunye kat diorggggg~ T.T